Did you ever get so angry about something that you keep thinking about it and thinking about it until it snowballs into something ridiculous and it affects everything?
Yeah. That’s me today.
I opened up my email on Saturday morning and got some news that irritated the shit out of me. I thought I could be mad about it for a while and then get over it, but I didn’t. Instead, it festered and grew and turned into something really nasty.
Suffice it to say, I came into work on Monday in a glorious mood and I’ve had trouble focusing all day. I’ve spent half the day feeling like I could cry or punch someone. Or both.
I pouted at lunch, which is not like me. That just annoyed me even more.
I was short and snippy whenever anybody asked me anything, which to me is worse than just being blatantly angry.
Then I had to have a discussion with a customer who was having a really crappy day. I get it, man. I’m having a crappy day too. I feel you on this. I’m having to tell you something you don’t want to hear and it sucks.
Until he pulls out the phrase everyone in my line of work just “loves” to hear:
“I know you get a bonus for denying my claim.”
FUUUUUUUUUCCCCCCKKKKKKK!!!!
Yes, Mr. X. I get a bonus every time I say the word “no”. It’s like the friggin’ tooth fairy leaving some coins under my pillow every time I knock someone else’s teeth out.
My “bonus” is so good, I’m going to retire when I’m fifty and live very comfortably for about eight minutes.
I FUCKING LOVE SHITTING UP YOUR DAY.
That’s actually what people think. Tell me I’m wrong. I dare you.
I was really in a funk at that point and I was short with my boss. He’s a really nice guy and I would never want to be short with him, but I was. So then I just felt like a ginormous turd ball.
And then I rage ate some potato chips and a key lime frosted cookie.
I knew I needed to write my post for Tuesday, but I was in no mood to talk about The Husband Dude’s high school reunion, which was going to be my original topic. I met some really nice people there and the venue was really cool but it’s impossible to write something positive when you’re irritated AF.
So, instead, I’m writing about this because you’re my people and I knew you would understand.
And what kicked off this shit show of a mood? I can’t really discuss it here, but let’s just say I almost got into a Satan’s Butthole rage, so that should tell you how upset I was.
So now you have this shit show of a blog post to read.
I’m sorry.
I created this greeting card in my shop a while back and it feels like it suits the occasion.
Maybe next time I can write about the reunion and more pleasant topics. In the meantime, I might do some of this.
Stay weird, my friends. Normal is boring.
RiVergirl says
July 2, 2019 at 6:26 amI’m a festerer as well. Not proud of it, but I can stew with the best of them. I’d love to say something helpful and bright like this too shall pass, but chances are it won’t , so I’ll just say I hope you don’t rip anyone’s head off or go postal at work. Sometimes that’s the best we can hope for.
Kat says
July 2, 2019 at 7:40 amYes. It’ll take me a while, but I’ll eventually get to where I don’t obsess about it, even if I’m still REALLY resentful about it. Thank you.
Boo says
July 2, 2019 at 10:43 amAsk yourself. Is it worth the energy you are spending on it? Will it change the problem for you to be so angry and losing YOUR time over it?
Be more like a dog. If you can’t change it? bury it, piss on it, and walk away.
Kat says
July 2, 2019 at 1:12 pmThat’s probably a good way of looking at it!
FABULOUS MELANIE says
July 2, 2019 at 4:21 pmHaha my dog walked into the fan the otter day and DID PISS ON IT!
Kat says
July 2, 2019 at 5:19 pmLOL
M.L. James says
July 2, 2019 at 11:06 amKat,
Whatever it is, if you want me to go beat em up for you, just say the word! Sorry you’re having a tough moment. Hope things improve soon! Mona
Kat says
July 2, 2019 at 1:12 pmThanks Mona!
FABULOUS MELANIE says
July 2, 2019 at 4:24 pmWork is stupid. People suck. The way they treat adjusters sux more. And then our companies usually crap on us as a personalized thank you.
All I have is empathy, dude.
Kat says
July 2, 2019 at 5:20 pmI know you do. It can break you, if you let it!
A.M. Mickle says
July 4, 2019 at 3:26 amThat sucks that you’re going through some bullshit. Also that you got a shitty customer. I don’t know why people think CSRs and other customer service workers get bonuses or kudos or pats on the back for denying customers what they want. 9 times out of 10, they mostly get chewed out by their superiors because either a) gotta keep the customers happy happy HAPPY, or b) “I can’t believe you made ME deal with that asshole.”
Semi-related: I overheard someone at Best Buy tell a customer service girl, “We’ve probably spent $20,000 over the last ten years,” and I immediately thought of one of your posts you made about stupid shit customers say. I wanted to turn around and be like, “Whoop-dee-doo! Best Buy Corporation probably pulls that much money in per HOUR, considering they’re probably the biggest tech retail chain on the planet, now. You ain’t special and losing your business isn’t going to hurt them a lick. Also, I am 90% sure your problem is your own fault.” But I was also very irritated because they were fixing my phone that would “be ready in about an hour” for the last four hours, so there was a small part of me that was also like, “Fuck, I hear you, bitchy old white lady probably named Susan. Fuck these guys.”
What was I saying? Oh, yea, people suck and I hope whatever pissed you off gets chucked into an active volcano. May your wine and chocolate be calorie-free yet rich like Midas.
Kat says
July 4, 2019 at 7:46 pmYou definitely get it! LOL. Thanks!
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